Weeeeeee~~

Can't believe I'm back so soon lol. Too many thoughts on my mind, not feeling well and I can't sleep. Don't wanna spam my Facebook either as some of my friends are already complaining that I'm too emo lol. I really need a place to share my words...so therefore..here I am.

Made a new friend like few months ago, he was friendly and easy going so we got along quite well. I considered him as real life friend even though we have never met before. When I treat someone as friends, I expect them to treat me back as a friend, not a temporary refuge place.

Everything was ok until one random day he start to hate losing, he's blaming and scolding everyone in game when losing a game. As a friend I don't like to see him in that state, so we all tried to cheer him up but all we got was cold treatment. I asked what happened and what do you want but all I got was a damn "nothing".

I wanna tell u something, you are a f*-king possessive and selfish friend. You expect people to be there for you while you may come and go as you wish. You emo me for playing with others while you can just leave party without a single word and start game with others, to the extent of not even replying my PM and making me think what did I do that offended you bcoz I cared as a friend.

I am angry of course, but you said sorry so I forgive you. And few days later you repeat the thing again. How hard is it to just say "Hey I'm joining my friends, play later"? Will I be angry if you tell me? Definitely no because we all have our own friends and it's totally fine as long as you inform instead of just running off without a word and leaving someone else behind wondering if they need to wait for you or not or else you might be f**king emo again if I started the game without you. End up I waited for nothing while you are having fun with others.

That is the stupidest thing I've done, to feel guilty, to care for a selfish person. And you have the cheek to pm me to ask me to play with you bcoz the others went off. And how dare you get angry with me for saying no after what you did? How dare you get emo because I'm playing with someone else and not you.

Do not say Sorry if you don't mean it. Don't ask for forgiveness if you intend to repeat in just a span of few days time.
I don't forgive people easily but I still did, and you just repeat the whole fking thing then ask me why am I angry. Really, lol.

You made to decision to unfriend me, then don't f**king come back to me. Don't f**king add me back. Don't f**king PM me anymore. I am not your f**king pet, not one that u can come and play with when you r happy and ditch when u r bored. F**k off you f**king loser.

I admit it's my fault for caring too much, I should've just ignored you earlier. I shouldn't even bother about your f**king mood. From today onwards, do what you want, say what you like, I don't give a damn anymore. You should know from the moment you unfriend me there's no turning back, and you will no longer be regarded as a friend to me. Don't bother coming back either, you are not welcomed ^_^

Well on a side note, besides this asshole ex friend, I did meet another new friend who treats me with much more respect and concern and I'm really grateful to know him. Who knows, one day he might hurt me too but at least he has earned enough credits to do so in future. I will not blame him for sure, and I will definitely remember all of his kind words and deeds. I do hope the day won't come though...I've had enough of all this back to square experiences..

This Is Still My Refuge Place

After so long, I still can't find a better alternative than blog when you have things happening around you and you don't know who to tell. Typing things down will definitely make you feel much more relieved at the end of the post.

Looking back at my old posts, to be honest I haven't really changed much compared to 4-5 years ago lol. My thoughts and opinions are still more or less the same. I guess it's a bad sign that I did not progress in terms of mental development? Haha..I wish I can stay 23 forever T_T

Back to my blog today to write about you being yourself. To be or not to be? People always say that others who can accept you for who you are are not worth your time, but is that really true? And can you really walk the talk? Saying is much much much much easier than doing.

I thought my post is gonna be longer than this, but as I reach here I realised I don't have much things to write anymore, at least not for now..maybe I will be back again when I feel like it?

T.T

This is how I feel now T.T

Self Reminder

I will not drink when I'm down or emo anymore T.T

Bad Luck Streak

This year has been a pretty bad year for me. Getting jobs that's not what I want, and 4 car related issues up to date. Yea..got into an accident few days ago. Settled with that guy already, thought wait till weekend only go fix my own car coz I need car to work. But who knows today on my way to work, the most shocking thing happened.

Was driving on highway, and suddenly "BAMM!!". The fking bonnet's lock spoiled due to my accident I guess, and I didn't realised it as well after accident, so ya..it slammed onto my windscreen. Really fked up. But thankfully my windscreen is tinted, and I managed to get to the emergency lane safely after that. So ya..from a minor accident the a serious one now T.T

I really duno why the fuck this year so bad luck la..please let me stay safely can? T.T basically i'm working for ntg this year lol..my income all go to fix car already...Just ranting a bit, I'm still glad im unharmed =)

Questions

Dumbass

Why?

It sux

Hmm...

What's on my mind?

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Emo

Everything is not going smoothly today..everything seems to be wrong. I was feeling moody already due to the things that's not right, then 1 joker thinking that he's funny making a stupid joke with me. Seriously you've always been an ass, and I tried my best to tolerate your big talks, your arrogance, your showing off and I never bother to say anything either. "河水不犯憎水", I never bother you you shouldn't have came and bother me. Now you've crossed the line, don't blame me if I don't give you face anymore. Idiot.

Besides that stupid guy above, something else is bothering me. The whole of last week really made me happy, but somehow I came to realise that it's not true, it's not happening. I'm just living in my own illusion. It's really not easy to wake up, but still...I guess I have to..

1st Post in 2012 =)

Although I'm supposed to write something happy, but too bad no...

Well as usual, screwed up my sleeping time (again). I'm trying to fix it back by staying awake (again too). Maybe when one have nothing to do, they will start to think a lot of things. It's happening to me..

Good thing is, it's keeping me awake. Down side, it's making me emo..all sort of random thoughts surfacing, mostly not so good ones..then Jay Chou's songs step in, and make me even worse.

It's been a long time since I feel emo..maybe it has something to do with an incident that happened yesterday. I hate being cheated, making me feel guilty for nothing. It sux..If you're wondering what's the purpose of this post, there's no purpose. I just wanna write out how I'm feeling now, hopefully I can be better after this lol..

Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year everyone =)

Paths

I really wonder, what are the paths available for me, and what are the paths I can choose from? Am I on the right path now, or it's just a path that I'm passing through to get to another path.

These are some of the questions that have been lingering on my mind for more than a month. I really don't know what to do, and what I can do.

My friends asked me, do you have any things that you are really good at? No
Any things that you are really passionate about? No
Any things that you wish to do? No

With all these questions, I start to ponder, what is there for me? What do I have? I really have no idea at all. It's not like I've never thought of this before, but for years and years I still have not found the answers to any of the questions above. And this made it even harder for me to decide what I should do..

I understand the fact that friends can give you opinions/advises and all, but it's you who will be the decision maker in the end. No one can decide for you on what you should do, but I really don't know what I can do..

People are telling me different things, and since I do not have any opinion of my own yet I do not know which advise to heed. What should I do....time to change, or just continue the path I'm walking now?

And this all comes back to the point of I hate to choose =.=

What Should I do?

I wish and wish, but I know that this ain't fairytale and wishes do not come true

The Survival Game..

Another emo post..my happy day was ruined..thank you.

2 Months Worth of Rants

Had a really bad month, I thought June was bad..but July was even worse. Had a lot of disagreements and arguments with people around me, work is not going smoothly and I have problem sleeping properly due to my imba mood.

Seriously, it sux, despite my birthday being in the month of July as well, I didn't really have a great day on my birthday. I am really tired and stressed, especially at work. There's so many things going on around, and I have really thought of giving up for n thousand of times but it's thanks to a few of my friends who kept supporting me and told me to go on that's why I'm still surviving till now.

I have never really work more than 1 month for a permanent job before (excluding the Dubai one because for that I have no choice, I couldn't just come back to Malaysia and say I don't want to work anymore right?). For my current job, it's my 4th month there but somehow it felt like I've been working for at least a year. Time pass by really fast there, and things change really fast as well.

It's really difficult to adapt to the inconsistent changes, and the stress. To tell the truth, I have never really liked doing sales. This is something that I am aware of since I'm 15 years old and yet my job are still mostly sales based because:

1. Good Pay
2. When people look at my resume, they ignore my cert and only take my work experience into account and that's....sales...

It's really freaking sad you know, the reason I took mass comm instead of business is because I know I don't like business. I want something with free working time, not so routine kinda job, and also a job which doesn't care the process but only the result. My current job started off like what I wanted, but as time goes on, everything changes.

I can't control my emotions and it's affecting literally every aspect of my life. Because of some incidents that took place last time, I no longer trust people at work so end up I'm solo'ing in the office. When something happens and I really need someone to talk to, there's none because I don't trust people from my workplace.

I chose to keep everything to myself, but how much capacity do I have? Even a balloon would explode if it's filled with too much air right? Thankfully I still have this blog here..at least there is still somewhere for me to write down what I really feel.

Besides work, other stuff is not going well too. Friendship for example, things got complicated and the once good frens are no longer good frens. And there's more than 1 case..work place got no 1 to trust + good frens also no longer can talk to = eat myself.

Gained a lot of weight over the past 1 month, reason? My mood swings. Whenever I feel moody, I will shop for food, then I will go on a eating spree. It does help, but it has it's side effect =/ Anyway feel so much better now after blabbing out everything here. I don't know who will read this, and I don't know if my post will be related to you or not, screw it!

I Need a Peace of Mind..

3:58am in the morning of 9th July 2011. Everyone is going on and on about the Bersih Rally while I'm being troubled by other stuffs until I don't really care whether the protest is on or not.

Was facing some issues which kinda held me up till just now. My emo partner Algin asked me to on Skype to chat. It did help, really..but after the conversation ended, another new trouble came. I wish I can elaborate here but too bad it's work stuff which contains too much of sensitive issues so I can't just write it down wherever I like haih...

I doubt I will be sleeping tonight..and I really wish those troubles will just disappear. I'm trying to not think about any of the stuff that's bothering me..but it seems really impossible to do so..

Unhappy...

Another post full of rants..

Zzzz..!

I'm really pissed off now. I've just reformatted my PC 2 weeks ago, kena virus again. I 4got that the virus infected my pendrive and external hard disk too previously, and plugged it to my PC T_T The saddest part is my current anti virus (Avira) cannot detect it zzzz!

I've just got a new external hard disk last week and I have only 1 week time to try it and return if there is any problem. But how can I try it when I know there's virus lurking around in my PC! =.=" The 1 week period will be ending soon, and my external hard disk still cantik-cantik wrapped in it's box unopened.

How to clear that virus ah, howwwwwww?? T_T Very sien already argh! I uninstalled my Avira and using Kaspersky trial version hoping to clear it, but seriously, Kaspersky super lag! When it's scanning I can't do anything much with my PC =.="

Hope can settle by today, then I can try my new external HDD T_T

P/S: Don't give me advices such as don't simply open unknown websites, I kena from that stupid virus from the stupid company's PC during my internship and not from surfing the web zzzz.

Why Am I Not Using Streamyx?

I've been asked this question for duno how many thousands of times. You know when it really gets annoying? Not answering the same thing again to different people, but to the SAME PERSON! Seriously, there's quite a few of them, after asking me once which I've exlpained in details why am I not using Streamyx and not long later, ask me the same question again!

I'm really tired of answering it. I'm not a record player ok? Don't expect me to answer you again and again when you won't even remember it. So I'm writing it here now, and the next person who ask me this question again will have my post's link stuffed to them ^^

I am not using Streamyx because the condo I'm staying is not using Telekom Malaysia's line. I guess it's some contract thingy that at each residential area there must be a few parts given to other Telco. So the condo I'm staying is using TIME dotCom (Formerly known as Time Telekom)'s line.

This is Telekom Malaysia's Logo

This is Time dotCom's Logo

So...Streamyx is provided by Telekom Malaysia, while I'm having TIME dotCom's line. You don't expect me to purposely go tarik Telekom Malaysia's line to my place just because of wanting to use Streamyx right?

Time dotCom do have their own broadband services, but it's freaking expensive. 1.5Mbps package for RM128/month ok? Yes I know, if I get one, I can have smooth sailing internet surfing experience with constant speed and all, but it's almost double the price of the broadband I'm using now.

Currently I'm using Umobile, and I guess unknown to many of you, yes Umobile have broadband services and I've been using it for almost 2 years now. It's only RM68 per month (RM78 for me, because I took some package that comes with the modem last time), and I can assure you it's much much better than the speculated "Potong" broadband. (I'm sure you know which am I talking about ^^)

Glad I finally wrote this post, I will no longer have to repeatedly explain the whole thing again ^^

Is This What You Call A Copycat?

I logged in to Innit just now, just checking around because I'm still not sleepy yet. Then, I saw a post with the title "I Just Love Good Smelling People", so I clicked and read her post. When I read her post, I was like "WTF!!"! Why you ask?

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Have you read the paragraph above? Well, now read this. Spot the similarity? If just using the crowded bus story, I wouldn't have say anything about it because it's normal that people think about that situation. But she even copy the details like "staying a distance but can't because the bus is crowded and have to bear with it till we reach our destination". I showed it to my friend, and he who've read my post first also felt that she COPIED MY IDEA!!!

You might say, no big deal, but hello! You wanna win some cash, then use your own F**king idea la! Why go steal people's idea!? Do you know how irritating is it to see someone just changed some words and made it into their work? I sat in front of my PC to think how should I write my advertorial, and she so senang just copy it huh?

You might say, are you sure that it's her who copied you and not the other way round? Well just see for yourself...

I posted mine 7 hours and 32 minutes ago

While her's is posted 2 hours and 27 minutes ago!

Judge for yourself, what do you think? Am I wrong to say that she STOLE my idea? Or do you think that I'm just too sensitive? Actually I shouldn't be posting her link here, as this will make curious people to visit her blog and increase her blog traffic, but doesn't matter. I just want to everyone to see and judge!!

UPDATED 11/3/10, 7.12pm:
I went and see her blog again and noticed that she has disabled comment only for that particular post. And Shiselle who read this post, saw that the Copycat copied part of her post too!! So that is what her post is made of, parts and bits of other people's post! She seriously sux!

UPDATED 15/3/10, 2.59am:
She did not apologise, but she removed the advertorial anyway. So I guess that's the end of this Copycat issue. I wanna thank all the Nuffnangers who supported me =)

KFC Malaysia disappointing Fans on Facebook

This is what happened yesterday on the 19th of January, 2010. As I've mentioned previously in my post KFC Zinger Tower Feed me Fast Contest, KFC Malaysia is having a contest that's runned on Facebook.

I took part in the contest too, with a lot more other Facebook users. There is a thing call Bonus Hour in the contest, where the daily winners will have to wait for it be announced, then be the fastest XX person to upload a proof of purchase of any Zinger Tower related product to win KFC vouchers. They will announce beforehand if there will be a Bonus Hour or not for the day, so we will have to continue waiting to win.

On Sunday, after the Daily Contest ends, they said that they won't be Bonus Hour today but there will be a big one tomorrow, meaning Monday.


This statement kept many of the fans waiting on Monday, because they made it sound like there's gonna be Bonus Hour on Monday. So many of the fans waited on Monday for the whole day and they ended up being disappointed of course. Many of them left comments asking, "Where is the Bonus Hour?", and this is what KFC Malaysia replied..


According to them, they didn't state that they will be a Bonus Hour on Monday and fans should refer to the daily post for info and updates. Ok so fine, some of the fans accepted it because KFC Malaysia is right, they really didn't say that they will be a Bonus Hour on Monday directly.

Then Tuesday, which is yesterday, 19/1/10, I joined again hoping that I can win the Bonus Hour vouchers. Well, I did qualify for it for the 2nd session and was quite happy then. When they announced the Daily Winners, they stated that there WILL BE A BONUS HOUR TODAY.

I was quite excited that there is a Bonus Hour because that is the reason I joined this contest for, the KFC Vouchers. So I waited for the Bonus Hour after it was announced at 3pm. One hour, two hours, three hours....seven hours! The seventh hour is 10pm, and I begin to get impatient so I posted a comment asking when is the Bonus Hour.

To my surprise, there are a lot more who's waiting for the Bonus Hour like me. We were all starting to get impatient because, hey, 10pm already, still no news. A lot of us have been waiting since the Bonus Hour was announced at 3pm ok?

Anyway, I still waited till 12am, because by doing so, I can say that THERE IS NO FREAKING BONUS HOUR ON 19/1/10! Not only that, there wasn't even any updates or whatsoever to tell us what's going on. A lot of us who waited for the Bonus Hour left various comments and uploaded screenshots, demanding an explanation.

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But there is something more disappointing the Bonus Hour that didnt came, look at the screenshot below on what KFC Malaysia have to say regarding the matter yesterday.

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Ya, that's all they have to say for yesterday, technical error. Just one freaking TECHNICAL ERROR made don't know how many of us waiting for the whole damn night! For me, it's only one night, but for a lot others, it's two nights in a row straight! What's worse, this is the one and only reply they gave to all of us regarding this matter.

No further explanation, or details were given. They say they are gonna compensate the Bonus Hour by giving it out today but what's the point?? It's only for the daily winners of Day 10, but not us who waited the whole damn night for it! More questions were posted after that, but none were replied by KFC Malaysia.

Seriously, irresponsible. You think with just a post, saying that there's technical error can compensate all of us for the time spent in front of the monitor waiting for the damn Bonus Hour? And questions were left unanswered, details not clarified.

Anyway, I won't give a $#!t about this stupid Contest anymore. I won't waste another day waiting for the Bonus Hour that is once again promised today but God knows if it will come or not.

To you guys who's joining, have fun. Good Luck, and hope your Bonus Hour comes =)

UPDATED on 21/1/10, 1.26am
KFC Malaysia deleted all the screen shots that were uploaded by the disappointed fans regarding the Bonus Hour that never came. So this is how you handle issues, with a "Delete" button :)