Weeeeeee~~

Can't believe I'm back so soon lol. Too many thoughts on my mind, not feeling well and I can't sleep. Don't wanna spam my Facebook either as some of my friends are already complaining that I'm too emo lol. I really need a place to share my words...so therefore..here I am.

Made a new friend like few months ago, he was friendly and easy going so we got along quite well. I considered him as real life friend even though we have never met before. When I treat someone as friends, I expect them to treat me back as a friend, not a temporary refuge place.

Everything was ok until one random day he start to hate losing, he's blaming and scolding everyone in game when losing a game. As a friend I don't like to see him in that state, so we all tried to cheer him up but all we got was cold treatment. I asked what happened and what do you want but all I got was a damn "nothing".

I wanna tell u something, you are a f*-king possessive and selfish friend. You expect people to be there for you while you may come and go as you wish. You emo me for playing with others while you can just leave party without a single word and start game with others, to the extent of not even replying my PM and making me think what did I do that offended you bcoz I cared as a friend.

I am angry of course, but you said sorry so I forgive you. And few days later you repeat the thing again. How hard is it to just say "Hey I'm joining my friends, play later"? Will I be angry if you tell me? Definitely no because we all have our own friends and it's totally fine as long as you inform instead of just running off without a word and leaving someone else behind wondering if they need to wait for you or not or else you might be f**king emo again if I started the game without you. End up I waited for nothing while you are having fun with others.

That is the stupidest thing I've done, to feel guilty, to care for a selfish person. And you have the cheek to pm me to ask me to play with you bcoz the others went off. And how dare you get angry with me for saying no after what you did? How dare you get emo because I'm playing with someone else and not you.

Do not say Sorry if you don't mean it. Don't ask for forgiveness if you intend to repeat in just a span of few days time.
I don't forgive people easily but I still did, and you just repeat the whole fking thing then ask me why am I angry. Really, lol.

You made to decision to unfriend me, then don't f**king come back to me. Don't f**king add me back. Don't f**king PM me anymore. I am not your f**king pet, not one that u can come and play with when you r happy and ditch when u r bored. F**k off you f**king loser.

I admit it's my fault for caring too much, I should've just ignored you earlier. I shouldn't even bother about your f**king mood. From today onwards, do what you want, say what you like, I don't give a damn anymore. You should know from the moment you unfriend me there's no turning back, and you will no longer be regarded as a friend to me. Don't bother coming back either, you are not welcomed ^_^

Well on a side note, besides this asshole ex friend, I did meet another new friend who treats me with much more respect and concern and I'm really grateful to know him. Who knows, one day he might hurt me too but at least he has earned enough credits to do so in future. I will not blame him for sure, and I will definitely remember all of his kind words and deeds. I do hope the day won't come though...I've had enough of all this back to square experiences..

This Is Still My Refuge Place

After so long, I still can't find a better alternative than blog when you have things happening around you and you don't know who to tell. Typing things down will definitely make you feel much more relieved at the end of the post.

Looking back at my old posts, to be honest I haven't really changed much compared to 4-5 years ago lol. My thoughts and opinions are still more or less the same. I guess it's a bad sign that I did not progress in terms of mental development? Haha..I wish I can stay 23 forever T_T

Back to my blog today to write about you being yourself. To be or not to be? People always say that others who can accept you for who you are are not worth your time, but is that really true? And can you really walk the talk? Saying is much much much much easier than doing.

I thought my post is gonna be longer than this, but as I reach here I realised I don't have much things to write anymore, at least not for now..maybe I will be back again when I feel like it?

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T.T

This is how I feel now T.T

Self Reminder

I will not drink when I'm down or emo anymore T.T

Bad Luck Streak

This year has been a pretty bad year for me. Getting jobs that's not what I want, and 4 car related issues up to date. Yea..got into an accident few days ago. Settled with that guy already, thought wait till weekend only go fix my own car coz I need car to work. But who knows today on my way to work, the most shocking thing happened.

Was driving on highway, and suddenly "BAMM!!". The fking bonnet's lock spoiled due to my accident I guess, and I didn't realised it as well after accident, so ya..it slammed onto my windscreen. Really fked up. But thankfully my windscreen is tinted, and I managed to get to the emergency lane safely after that. So ya..from a minor accident the a serious one now T.T

I really duno why the fuck this year so bad luck la..please let me stay safely can? T.T basically i'm working for ntg this year lol..my income all go to fix car already...Just ranting a bit, I'm still glad im unharmed =)

Lovely Weather \(≧∇≦)/

It's been raining a lot recently, and the weather is so cooling. Totally loving it~ and hope it will be here to stay.

It's my birthday yesterday, and nope I did not celebrate it as I'm not the type of person who will purposely celebrate my own birthday unless my friends planned for me =x But nonetheless I'm very happy to receive all the birthday wishes especially from those who's really dear to me. Their wishes meant a lot to me, one of them was even in NS and yet he still remember my birthday. Was really touched.

And thanx to the technology nowadays, i received a couple of birthday songs sung by my friends as well on Whatsapp lol. I may not be seeing any of them in real life, but it just felt so warm =)

Once again, a very big THANK YOU to all of you. I love you guys!

I'm back?

Might start blogging again, just played with the templates earlier just now. So many things changed and it's been so long since I've last edited HTML code of my blog that I forgotten how to do it -_-

Decided that I will take things step by step. Creating new banner for my blog now, don't know how long I will take though =x Will try to update my blog more~

Realise

Just realised that blogging is the best way for me to make myself feel better when I think too much lol

Questions

Dumbass

Why?

It sux

Hmm...

What's on my mind?

*blank*

Emo

Everything is not going smoothly today..everything seems to be wrong. I was feeling moody already due to the things that's not right, then 1 joker thinking that he's funny making a stupid joke with me. Seriously you've always been an ass, and I tried my best to tolerate your big talks, your arrogance, your showing off and I never bother to say anything either. "河水不犯憎水", I never bother you you shouldn't have came and bother me. Now you've crossed the line, don't blame me if I don't give you face anymore. Idiot.

Besides that stupid guy above, something else is bothering me. The whole of last week really made me happy, but somehow I came to realise that it's not true, it's not happening. I'm just living in my own illusion. It's really not easy to wake up, but still...I guess I have to..

1st Post in 2012 =)

Although I'm supposed to write something happy, but too bad no...

Well as usual, screwed up my sleeping time (again). I'm trying to fix it back by staying awake (again too). Maybe when one have nothing to do, they will start to think a lot of things. It's happening to me..

Good thing is, it's keeping me awake. Down side, it's making me emo..all sort of random thoughts surfacing, mostly not so good ones..then Jay Chou's songs step in, and make me even worse.

It's been a long time since I feel emo..maybe it has something to do with an incident that happened yesterday. I hate being cheated, making me feel guilty for nothing. It sux..If you're wondering what's the purpose of this post, there's no purpose. I just wanna write out how I'm feeling now, hopefully I can be better after this lol..

Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year everyone =)

For Me To Remember...

.....and not for you to know =)

Weeeee~~

I just found out there are still people reading my almost dead blog LOL! Well, that does motivates me to write back =)

So ya, I will start by changing the damn skin 1st, then I will try my best to blog back as often as possible. Besides, it does feel great to have a space to write out nonsense which might annoy my friends, or thoughts too deep for some =x

Forgot How To Edit HTML Codes T.T

Wanted to change my blog template, and as most of you know I haven't been touching my blog for like a year.

Didn't know so many things changed in a year time -_-" I experimented with the new template designer function. Wanted to do some customization for the template, went to edit HTML. I am very surprised that I don't even remember how to change the background T.T

Not only that, somehow the codes seems to have changed a lot. I couldn't locate some of the areas that I wanna edit from the bunch of codes, I tried searching for those names that I'm familiar with but I couldn't find them..

Damn...have to learn all over again *sigh* Will only change my blog's template when I know how to =(

Relieved =D

I felt really relieved and happy that I have finally made a decision. I didn't know that I will feel so happy after doing what I've decided.

I guess there won't be any rants or emo posts here for a while ^_^ Hopefully everything will be good.

Something That Made Me Smile =)

For the past few months I've been really lost and upset due to work stuff, but after the trips to Singapore and Hong Kong few weeks ago I somehow have something I can think of and smile again ^^

There were a lot of happy memories and silly things which made me smile just by reminiscing them lol. The one that made me happiest would be how I made a friend in Hong Kong lol. It was something rather silly, and not something that I would normally do but I'm really glad that I made the move anyway.

If I didn't I guess most probably I will have something to add on to my I-Regret-I-Did-Not-Do-This list haha XD From the trips I made, I also realised that I get attached to something/somewhere easily. I actually felt sad when I'm leaving the countries, thinking that I might not be able to meet the friends I met again.

That is the worse feeling ever. Although it will not last for long but still..it can actually make someone cry. I miss all the friends I have from other countries, hopefully you guys are fine wherever you are and hopefully I'm not forgotten! =x

Paths

I really wonder, what are the paths available for me, and what are the paths I can choose from? Am I on the right path now, or it's just a path that I'm passing through to get to another path.

These are some of the questions that have been lingering on my mind for more than a month. I really don't know what to do, and what I can do.

My friends asked me, do you have any things that you are really good at? No
Any things that you are really passionate about? No
Any things that you wish to do? No

With all these questions, I start to ponder, what is there for me? What do I have? I really have no idea at all. It's not like I've never thought of this before, but for years and years I still have not found the answers to any of the questions above. And this made it even harder for me to decide what I should do..

I understand the fact that friends can give you opinions/advises and all, but it's you who will be the decision maker in the end. No one can decide for you on what you should do, but I really don't know what I can do..

People are telling me different things, and since I do not have any opinion of my own yet I do not know which advise to heed. What should I do....time to change, or just continue the path I'm walking now?

And this all comes back to the point of I hate to choose =.=